Category Archives: Grief and Loss

Update on my father

He was moved to hospice yesterday. I told my mother and she is, as expected, cold and critical and she started in on being mean and nasty to me.  Her hatred of my father doesn’t even end when she knows … Continue reading

Posted in Death, Father Loss, Fathers, Grief and Loss, Grounding, Healthy detachment, Narcissistic Mothers, Narcissistic Parents, Shame, Soul wounds | Tagged , | 15 Comments

The beginning of the last days

2010 was the only time in 33 years I was able to see my father and embrace him.  It’s been 4 years since that photo was taken…but it doesn’t seem that long ago.  You can see all the pictures of … Continue reading

Posted in Cancer, Death, Grief and Loss | Tagged , | 8 Comments

The legacy of dysfunction

I’m working through Claudia Black’s It Will Never Happen to Me.  I find reading the literature about living with chemically addicted people to be quite helpful at this point in my journey.    I talk about my experience with living with … Continue reading

Posted in adult child of alcoholics, adult survivors of abuse, Alcoholism, Compassion, Complex-PTSD, depression, Emotional Self-Regulation, Grief and Loss, Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, Healing, Healthy detachment, Inner Child, Inner Excavation, Madness, PTSD, PTSD triggers, Radical Acceptance, Radical forgiveness, Radical self-forgiveness, Recovery from child abuse, Sadness, Safety | Tagged , , , , , , | 8 Comments

To no one in particular and to you in particular

I don’t want to live like this anymore (upset, tearful, afraid). I don’t want to keep beating myself up for my failures. I was taught to mistrust my Self. I was taught to hate my Self. I can see, though, … Continue reading

Posted in adult child of alcoholics, adult survivors of abuse, Affirmations, Alcoholism, anxiety, Compassion, Ego, Emotionally Absent Mother, Empathic resonance, Grief and Loss, Grounding, Healing, Healing Power of Tears, Healthy detachment, Personal growth, Seeking the sacred, Self-affirming, self-criticism, Trapped in the Mirror, Trauma, trauma recovery, True Self, Trust | Tagged , , , , , | 4 Comments

Accepting when it’s hard.

Yesterday, my best internet friend needed a month-long break from me. Not a couple of days, not a couple of weeks. But a whole month. I have separation anxiety. I know this is stupid and irrational. I KNOW I’d been … Continue reading

Posted in anxiety, Broke Down Spirit, Connection, Disconnection, Friendship, Grief and Loss, Healing, Healthy detachment, Highly Sensitive Person, Mindfulness, Moods, Radical Acceptance, Radical forgiveness, Radical self-forgiveness, Sadness, True Self, Trust | Tagged , , , | 6 Comments