Category Archives: Disconnection

In-between and nowhere

I have this peculiarly troubling phenomenon happen to me from time to time. A real-life friend of mine told me something that always seems to worry me a bit.  He said, “I wonder if I’m smart enough to keep up … Continue reading

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The dry season.

Before they closed down the local borders, I wrote this post about not being able to connect with people who had loved books as much as I had. I wrote this in January of 2010, four years ago: I’m convinced … Continue reading

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Accepting when it’s hard.

Yesterday, my best internet friend needed a month-long break from me. Not a couple of days, not a couple of weeks. But a whole month. I have separation anxiety. I know this is stupid and irrational. I KNOW I’d been … Continue reading

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Echoes of the past

During the week between the 15th and the 21st of December, I was struggling a great deal with what I believe were somatic memories of what happened last year as well as partial dissociation.  The following is something I wrote … Continue reading

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Dancing with the pain

I wrote this to a trusted friend about two days ago: “I’m unwell. It doesn’t seem to matter how much I want to be well…it doesn’t matter what i read or listen to, or make art or write or play … Continue reading

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