An insight into myself

I am naive.

I see so much goodness in people, and I’ve often failed to recognize when I’m being harmed.

I don’t necessarily see this as the other person’s fault, but mine. I focus so much on the glowing aspects of a person, I fail to accept they are indeed a human just like me, with both shadow and light.

When I meet a person’s shadow side, I am sometimes taken by surprise.

I shouldn’t be, but I am.

I also misunderstand much.

I want perfect understanding and harmony.

I don’t think perfect understanding is possible and I am sometimes very frustrated and upset when I don’t have that.

Yet, I wonder if harmony may be able to exist without perfect understanding.

If so, I haven’t mastered that yet.

And have caused harm because I haven’t.

Maybe I will, someday. I hope so.

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About Casey

“the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes ‘Awww!’ ~ Jack Kerouac, On The Road Again
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