I’ve been in a quietly contemplative mood lately. Periodically, I retreat from blogging without warning, because I need a break and every time I announce I’m going to take a break…it never usually lasts. I’m back on in a couple of days. I find it better for me just to retreat and come back whenever the mood strikes.
I’ve been creating in my art and gratitude journals. I’ve been making some more artist trading cards, and thinking about affirmation cards and some other things I plan on making.
I’ve been a mother for 10 years now…and I still am not sure how to do this job very well…but my daughters are very forgiving of that. We have some good times together, doing art and talking and having mommy and me dates whenever we can (usually going out for a meal and a treat and some conversation).
I’m far from a perfect mother. I’m cranky way too much (still). It’s because I had a really rough childhood. I’m doing a lot of inner child work, reading a lot of John Bradshaw’s work and seeing how the family dysfunction continues to try to sabotage my current relationships. Because even though I’m an adult…the wounded child still hurts…she’s still a little too emotional, but the good news is, she’s less and less angry as the adult in me seeks to re-mother her.
Believe it or not, I made some artwork for my mother today. We are going to her house in a few hours, and I have no idea if she’ll like what I made. It’s a mixed media piece on wood cradle board – which I like a lot better than canvas because it’s sturdy. I bought a metal art easel to put it on too. It was on clearance at the craft store.
I can’t really decide if I like it or not. I mean, I love the scrapbook paper the metal elements and the stickers, but I’m not fond of the background color scheme. I wish now I had gone with blue-green…but I started out thinking I was going to duplicate the other wedding layout for my mother…but at the last minute, changed my mind.
Since I just started this yesterday, I had no time to re-do it.
I almost hope my mother doesn’t like it…because I would like it keep it for myself.
But, I don’t know. I think if she didn’t like it, it would also hurt my feelings.
I don’t know…what do you think? Aside from the slightly crooked placement of some elements…do you think this passes as a decent gift?
It’s one thing to make for myself…but another thing to make something for another.
Oh, yeah…I almost forgot.
Happy Mother’s Day!
ack…I had my daughter help me out with getting rid of excess glue and she smeared the copper ink at the top, so I had to re-do it. Actually, I like it much better this way.
What a happy accident…